1324 FOLLOWERS IM LAUGHING SO HARD ITS IN ORDER
1324 is not in order Matt
ITS 2 AM AND IM NOT EVEN GOOD AT SCIENCE IN THE FIRST PLACE
it doesn’t matter how much sleep i get i will always be tired
I’m laying on my bed in the dark desperately fighting the urge to cry and completely fall apart. My chest aches to my very core, as if my soul is tearing in half. Nothing eases the pain. Nothing makes me feel better. I get distracted and temporarily numbed by daily activities, but nothing actually gives me release from this heartache. I’m so ridiculously lonely. To think that I bought into every word and every comforting kiss. I fucking believed him. I thought he was “the one”. And I’ve never even believed in that shit. My whole fucking family loved him, took him in, and supported him. They’ve never cared about a guy I’ve dated like that. My grandfather told me, “This is the man you’re going to marry”. What a bunch of fucking bullshit. Now I hurt so badly I can barely think straight. I can’t even let myself cry or really fall apart. I’m scared I’ll never get back up if I fall this time.